Wednesday, September 9, 2009 it or....

I am a fairly organized person; ok, borderline OCD is more like it! I've tried hard over the years to categorize almost everything in my life into lists; or at least, general ideas of how I think things should go.

In walks Olivia.....throw out the lists, schedules and organization. It has taken me nearly 4 months to get some reasonable organization (read: discipline) back into my life.

In particular, I have struggled to maintain a consistent quiet time with God each day. I know I need to discipline myself into this habit, and it has been difficult. However, we have started Beth Moore's Breaking Free study at church. I have committed to having daily quiet time with God. I NEED this study, but more than the study, I NEED God to communicate with God consistently. It can no longer be a one-way street of my wants as I'm just "passing through" a certain task. Although, I do think it is great to throw those prayers out there when I'm changing diapers, doing laundry, trying to cook or loving a fussy baby.

I have prayed that I will make time each morning for God and to do my homework. I know satan is lurking his ugly head around (notice I said around not in!)my home, but he will NOT prevail! I'm gonna do it with God's help!

Day 1 - Olivia slept like a charm - actually, I woke up at 6, did part of my study, she woke up, nursed her and then put her back down. Finished my study and started working on my memory is good, but I knew it wasn't gonna continue to be so easy!

Day 2 - Olivia woke up at 4:30a - no problem - nursed her, put her back down, did my study, back in bed by 6:30a! Love it....

Day 3 - Not sleeping good, Olivia woke up twice during the night (which she hasn't done in FOREVER)-satan is that you knocking? Go away - we are protected! Struggled to get up and 6:30 to do study, but I DID it! Dragging big time today, but so glad I'm learning about Isaiah.

Day 4 - what will you bring? It doesn't matter, because no weapon formed against me will prevail!!

Maybe this sounds a little legalistic, but I do believe discipline is important. I know after a while, discipline will become habit and habit is my goal once again! An item to be added to my daily list.

In His Grip,

Isaiah 61:1 - The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners....

1 comment:

  1. I think it becomes legalism when we start trying to force our own way of being disciplined on someone else.....that is what I struggle with sometimes. THinking everyone should do it my way.
    and kuddos on a great way to practice that memory verse. =)
    NOW - I'm off here to go get my studying done.